I've been diagnosed with major depressive disorder and borderline personality disorder for about 20 years. I don't have medical documentation throughout the entire time, but I have been seeing a psychiatrist since Sept of last year. Last year in February I was diagnosed with a condition causing me to have to have a hysterectomy (after trying for many years to get pregnant.) I lost it after that. I got depressed enough to cancel the hysterectomy, even though doing so could have killed me. I eventually rescheduled and had the surgery in May. I seem to miss more days at work than I actually work, mainly because most days I can't bring myself to get out of bed. I had a suicide attempt Oct 27th last year. I was placed on FMLA last year only allowing me to work 4 hours a day, 4 days a week. I couldn't even handle working that much and would constantly find ways to get out of work. I have panic attacks often, where I can't breathe, I hyperventillate, and cannot bring myself out of them, sometimes for hours, sobbing the entire time. Today I missed work because I broke down in tears and couldn't stop sobbing... for no reason. I believe I was released from the mental hospital too soon and I want to go back. I feel it's necessary for me to get better. I have a work from home job because being around people scares the crap out of me. I have constant nightmares, to the point where I'm afraid to go to bed at night. At this point I just don't know what else to do. I'm afraid I'll lose my home and my car because I miss so much work because of all of my issues, and my treatments aren't making me any better. Does it sound like I would qualify, or do I really have to go through 2 years of not being able to work for this?
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