Can I get disability even if part of it is my own fault? Need advice......

So I am unsure if I should put that it started from an overdose of mushrooms, but it was also continued to be made as bad as it was by a malpractice of a doctor. I will explain.

When I was younger I dated this guy who gave me too many mushrooms. I know there are many people who are insensitive when it comes to drugs but according to the disability website if you are no longer on any drugs and the damage is there it still counts as a disability. My story is kind of long but more or less it started with this overdose of mushrooms I had been given the amount for like 8 - 10 people. I was in the er. A extreme gastric disorder started out of nowhere since then and I developed crazy IBS food intolerances to like everything. I had extreme chronicle fatigue. It was so painful all the time. I started to get pain in my body as well. I was also very psychologically disturbed for a long time. I had forgotten how to communicate with people, I couldn't process information the same way, or emotions. I was hallucinating for a long time. I got better mentally but sadly the illness never went away. It doesnt stop there. I have extreme anxiety attacks that cause extreme physical distress and its very tearifying. I also struggle with depression. When I was younger I tried many suicide attempts and I hurt my brain with the overdoses on my antidepressants. I have had horrible depression ever since but have a deeper appreciate for my life. My illness was I thought getting better that was until I had a medical malpractice.

I was trying antidepressants again, rather fearfully I may add, because apparently there are sertitonan receptors all the way down the GI track so I tried this as a last resort because I am skinny and my stomach literally would distend to the point where I looked severely pregnant. I didnt like going out psychologically it made me really depressed because I was eating very healthy.

Organic, veggies, fruits, eggs, healthy meats ect. I couldn't handle the way the antidepressant made me feel it was like I was going through a rollercoaster ride in my mind and everyone could tell I was mentally distressed. It made some people not want to be around me. I got put on an benzodiazepine that was put on me the wrong way.This woman put me on it for two months straight it was ativan and you're only supposed to be on it for no more than a week.

This doctors who aren't psychiatrist act as if they are. They don't know the mechanics of the medication. She didnt tell me that if I didnt taper I could die. I followed the bottle and I think that I was getting sensitive to the med as I have bad reactions to another drug in the same class it gives me giant bruises. I started to shake for no reason. I felt like I was gonna die.I had to take more of it and anyways it ran out. I started to have extreme psychological psychosis

and I had to pee every half an hour. My organs hurt more and more each day. My whole body hurt it felt like a truck had hit me. I started to have extreme anxiety and the inability to control my emotions where I had learned since the mushrooms thing. I wasn't able to control anything. Apparently this is normal as I was cold turkeying from the med. I had to go to three ers and it was only the third that figured out what was wrong with me. I couldn't believe it as I had

trusted the doctor. Her lack of information nearly killed me. I had a minor suspected seizure before I had been to the er doctors. I got on a taper plan but the idiot doctors were tapering me with the wrong drug. They put me back on the drug as a taper plan the one thats not supposed to be used longterm. What you're supposed to do is use a different longer acting benzo thats easier on the body. I ended up having a partial seizure. My sensory perception went wacky and all my senses

mixed together like I was tripping and my heart was going too fast so fast that I thought i was going to have a heart attack my arms and my legs went limp and dropped and I couldnt lift them up and then I peed myself. I had tried to keep taking the ativan but I kept slurring my words and having more seizure like symptoms and ended up going to a better hospital and they told me that the best thing was to go to a detox center.

At this point I had not known that there were other tapering options that was something I learned after talking to other doctors and meticulous research. I got tapered and cold turkeyed in a week and my taper was supposed to last two months. What happened was I got s syndrome called protracted withdraw. My gaba receptors which is what the drugs affect are were not able to regulate back on there own and my chemicals in my brain were a sandstorm.

More or less I had no more seizures but the fact that I had not had a traditional taper gave me brain damage. Its a complicated medication thats regulated for a reason. Despite what you may think I did not abuse it. I genuinely had grown concern for my health and appreciated my life and wanted to get better and I only tried these things because the doctors who are professionals suggested it. I ended up developing much much worse sickness. his happened May 2015 and

and I was bedridden for many many months. I developed weird allergies and sensitivities to things past food. I am very intolerant to chemicals, perfumes now. I now have been diagnosed with fibromyalgia by two different doctors. I have also been diagnosed with multiple chemical sensitivity disorder, hypoglycemia and were still trying to figure it out but more or less I get very bad panic attacks that are extreme much worse than before, horrible depression,

my energy levels are even lower past the chronic fatigue. All my symptoms are of autoimmune reactions and my doctors aren't sure what I have but they are positive I am having autoimmune reactions. I get heat flashes, extreme pain in my joints, I get fevers very easily, I am mentally suffering as I am always swelling in my face and my stomach and I always feel like I have a migraine, I am sensitive to light, noise, I cant function leaving my home makes me feel extremely sick.

Its a mix of mental and physical and its a very tough subject because what they may pick up is not that I am having these new terrible symptoms and that they are disabling but simply the fact that I am blaming a doctor. My history has many hospital stays for panic attacks, the gastric disorder, pain, ect. I am wondering what those of you who know how disability works. I currently am not on any drug but take supplements, juice organic veggies and that helps to an extent.

But working being on my feet stresses me out because it hurts and the stress activate the autoimmune like reactions. Right now the docs think I may have histamine imbalance but its going to be a long process of recovery and of figuring out totally what happened and whats wrong with me. Please no judging at this point I need help.